Lovely memories without faces.


In a few hours time I'll be off to Singapore :)

I feel excited, but flooded with anxiety as well. Hopefully all goes well for everyone who's going. Oh, not to mention the agonizing bus ride that I'll be experiencing! Thumbs down for motion sickness :(
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Oh well, on another note, C3 came to City Harvest today :D

They were awesome and I had a front row view of the whole performance. Vibrations that leaves your body shaken even hours after the concert; it was just enlightening. Awesome performance, and they're kind of cute ;p
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Before I leave, 300km away from home, I feel the need to dig up the time capsule.

I miss:

This; the tranquil panorama.
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The moment that nearly went into sexy mode.
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Many kisses exchanged ;)
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The once in a lifetime delicacy :)
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I miss you, bear.

Waiting within the hour seems so long, and agonizing; but the more I think about it, the more emotions engulf my soul.

God, please make me feel good and not kill myself.

To end it, I pray for a safe journey, fun moments with brothers and sisters, an awesome performance, to shake Pastor Kong's hand again, to inspire the crowd and last but not least, to have a good time. I also pray for my sanity, and competence, in surviving emotional traumas. Father Lord, please hear me out :)

In Jesus name,
Amen.

Distinguished fears.

Who would have known,
The sound of shattered glasses,
Who would have known,
The silent tears,
Who would have known,
Your subtlety,
Who would have known-
Only me.
Shadows are gray,
But yours is black,
Night is dark,
But yours only dimmed,
My heart darkened,
But yours deepened,
My words sharpened,
But yours silenced;Where art thou,
You, whom I knew;
You, whom I sought;
You who taught me colors,
Colored me blind.

Crusader, crusader,
Knight shinning in silver,
Knight, oh! knight,
Coated in armor,
The war we fought,
No longer significant,Sentiments laid;
Courage left aside;
Judgements, you decide;
Maiden, oh, maiden,
Why do you abide?

Words describe not this anguish,
Comfort her you cannot,
Your maiden heart aches,
She cringes at the thought of reasons,
Eradicating the weeds you planted,
Contemplating justice,
Contemplating choice,
Contemplating love.
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In the end, I only smiled because of you.

... this formidable love.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHAWNIE BOY :D


BIG BIG BIG BIG BIG BIG BOY already lah, (17 right ;p)

Anyway, just a BIG shout-out to you;

Here's a poem dedicated to you;

Use your talent,
Demand its challenge,
Grasp it proudly,
But with an open heart.

The day will come,
Patience, little one,
He knows its your call,
Just make it through; give it your all.

:)

Have a great one. Gonna see you in church until I'm sick of you! :P

P.S: Nola, I'm not so bad kay :]

Fast forward:-

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MELISSA P'NG JIN LI :D

I know your birthday is on the 7th, but since I didn't get to call you at 12am, I succumbed to this. Wishing you on the net, a day before! (bangga)

I haven't seen you in a while, but I hope you still remember the good times we had as a kid. You were my soulmate, my shoulder, my sister, my best friend. Remember that one time I actually came to your house at 6 blardy am in the morning just to watch a movie. Remember our first meeting was through skating? Sigh, I miss those fun childish times. It's sad that our pathways are now separated. Nonetheless! I only stay like a few houses away from yours lah.

Have a great one, I know you will. Don't party too hard :)

Love ya babe, xo.

Wrestle thy affections.


I've officially lost my mojo to blog! Why am I so lazy :(

But, there is still hope! I am still writing on empty pages to keep the vocabulary intact and also to relieve stress.

So much has happened ever since I joined CHC, and I wonder whether it was ever a coincidence that I found my place. But He is always planning something great for each of us, and I will least try to make an effort to believe :)

Anyway, Dance My Love premiered a few weeks ago and it has been a blast despite sudden rushes of adrenalin numbing my body. During the first night, I felt scared, because I haven't been on stage for quite some time and was getting stage fright. I never felt so scattered in my life! I was here, there and everywhere; hair, make-up, wardrobe, accessories- you name it!

Quite an experienced felt, I'd say. I think I'd love to do another production as long as I'm free. So much with words, let's look at some of the pictures taken on stage :D

Presenting,

The infamous poster!
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Our elegant ballet team :)
*There you can see David Oh, acting as the ballet instructor and also a dad to one of the main cast.
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Spot the not: ZOUK >> ZUOK.
Our very own beatboxer doing his thang again :p
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Smooth Gees having a moment!
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Mimers!
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They were awesome lol ;p
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'Tyler' looks lost. Jorida was on set too :)
[So You Think You Can Dance finalist]
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Two main characters.
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Scene of the day: Nerd dancers!
They never fail to crack me up.
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Awesome :D
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Monsieur Justin and me.
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Lol, I didn't know Justin covered so much of his face!
Wondered how he manage to guide me :p
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Our very own hip hoppers! Hawt :D
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Smooth Gees in action :)
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Final retro dance scene :)

It was great; we all had fun.

xx

Tagged by Cayman & Huifen:

1) What is the relationship between you both?
Friends [Cayman]; Friend, cell member [Huifen]

2) 5 impressions of him/her:
Huifen:
- Caring
- Hillarious
- Hardworking
- Helpful
- Smiles all the time
Cayman:
- Friendly
- Helpful
- Sociable
- Intelligent
- Colorful

3) Most memorable things she/he has done for you:
Keep sandwiches for me after dance practice [Huifen]
Don't really talk much with Cayman, so I'm not sure.

4) The most memorable she/he has said to you:
"Get well soon, yeah?" [Huifen]
Like I said, I didn't get to talk much to Cayman, soo.. :(

5) If he/she becomes your enemy, you will...
feel awkward [both]

6) If he/she becomes your lover, they will have to improve on:
Lol, not sure what to say here ;p

7) If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason is:
I 'stole' your guitar [Huifen]
Coz, the Devil got jealous :P [Cayman]

8) The most desirable thing to do to him/her:
Haha, is this question written correctly?

9) The overall impression on him/her:
Both:
Friendly :)

10) How do you think the people around you feel around you?
Awkward sometimes!

11) Your character is:
Define all here meh -.-"

12) What do you hate about yourself?
The inability to trust people.

13) The most ideal person you want to be is:
I'm ideal enough right? :p Nola, hmm, I think idealism doesn't last long.

14) For the people who cares about you and like you, say something to them:
Thank you to whoever you may be :) I appreciate all the love and care that you have given to me! Thank you, thank you, thank YOU! [Man, I sound like a beauty pageant contestant, lol]

Ten people to tag:
1) Darren
2) Ethan ( I know he won't do it ;p)
3) Jian Eu
4) Samuel Chew
5) Delvin
6) Jeffrey
7) Shawn
8) Amy
9) Carmen
10) You! :D

Who is no. 2 having a relationship with:
HAHAHAHA.

Is no.3 a male or female?
What do you think?

If no.7 and 10 got together, would it be a good thing?
Hmm, it depends on who 'You' are.

How about no.5 and 8?
Weird. Totally, weird. LOL

What is no.1 studying?
Ain't studying no more. Working :)

Is no.4 single?
The last time I asked, yes ;p

Wahliao, damn tired to do a meme lor. T_T
I'm off to leisure land now :D

Toodelahs!

If it means to keep you ;


Sudden wars of vulgarities, you know we both don't really mean it. At some point, this has got to stop. This cannot continue forever. I held my breath for as long as I could, and I am still holding; I'm sure you are too.

Pray and have mercy upon the things you are doing to me. Whether you say it blatantly to the open or not, there are times I can feel the vague feeling of betrayal taking its place. Spare me your glares and disgust when I behave childishly. It only happens when I am with you. It shows that there are things in me waiting to burst, but kept compressed in my hollow chest. There are just so many things to say to you, but somehow backfires when the time is necessary.

Although, I'm occupied with the things I am doing now, I never fail to feel a pang of guilt in my heart, not accompanying you at night. I don't say it, I don't show it, doesn't mean I don't feel it. But there are days I question, my presence towards you; it just makes me vulnerable to know that I am sacrificing so many things, just so you'd keep noticing me.

I try to depend on myself, but yet I feel the void residing in me. I need you because I love you. And that's how it has always been. You just don't know how important you are, until maybe... one day.

These past few days, my heart has been aching. I know why, I just don't want to succumb myself into believing it because I know, it will break my heart even more.

Nonetheless, I still love you as always.

Stepping up the game.


Continuing my previous post.

Time is of the essence nowadays. I'm so busy, I don't even go online anymore! Oh well, I know you still miss me dear :)

Anyway, back to Singapore (finally)

Day 2 was pretty much a hang out day because service was in the morning ;p but nonetheless, we were still exhausted.

After dancing our last session for the event, we were free to roam around the wonders of Singapore. With Lester as our guide, thank the Lord we did not get lost :)

As you can see here, Kellz is trying to cross the busy road. But to no avail.
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Being the other one who crosses roads slow all the time, Jia Hao got pulled into the fanatic moment! *You can see Marki pointing at them, lol.
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Jia Hao looks like a prisoner in the end. Tsk ;p
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Oooh! I stepped on the F1 track. It was a delicious moment! :D
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Where spectators witness the esteemed f1 cars zooming across!
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The shopping mall we were at- Marina Square.
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Being a jackun here, because it was the first time I saw so many flat screens on a wall :D
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The two lovebirds having a romantic photo session! Haha ;p
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Tired :(
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Then Lester decided to join our clowny troupe. Now, no doubt, he IS one of us- jackuns.
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Kellz enjoying her RM25 meal. LOL
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Marki was so hungry she didn't even pose!
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Our infamous beatboxer :D
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Tour guide aka, the one who called me short!
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Groupie picture :D

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That ends the awesome S'pore trip!

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Our production 'Dance my love' was a success. Though, I am not ecstatic about my routine, and performance, I think it was alright overall. In the end, I was feeling a little remorseful about changing the cheorography on the last day to entertain Pastor Kevin, but at least we tried. I was just feeling down thinking about this performance. I could have done so much more but I guess I have to let it go and move on. I would definitely step up the game, next time around.

Overall, it was entertaining and I got my parents for once to watch me do something else other than studying. Their pressence there was appreciated. Thanks :)

I shall post pics, once I get them so, just keep logging in to check on me! ;)

*Oh, before I forget, the next post would be a tag post. Cayman tagged moi :D

Fools, begone.

Greetings back home in Msia again :)

Singapore has been great and now you'll see what I mean! Although it was a full two day activity which left us little time to explore the wonders of Singapore, we had loads of fun.

The night before flying off, I couldn't sleep till 3am. It was so difficult to wake up at 6.30am to continue packing and get ready. So, off I went sleepy as hell, like a zombie, to church.

Upon my arrival there, my dad said I couldn't take my piggie with me :( He said travel light. Oh well, I bade my goodbye to the poor thing in the car, and waited for Adam; who, is btw, supposed to reach earlier than us! :P

We had McD's for 'breakfast' and got into our plane. As soon as the 'safety belt' light went off, we camwhored -.-
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Representing CHC's talent; Shawn the rascal.
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This is Dennis.
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Our respected team leader; Adam.
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.Left to right: Dennis, Shawn, Uyi, Marki :D
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As soon as we arrived, we found out that Uyi couldn't get through the imigration. Unfortunately, he had to be sent back to KL for some confidential reasons. We were devastated, and discouraged. Or, rather, I was at least. Suddenly, I felt an element missing in our team but I still tried to put a smile on my face to help encourage everyone else. Especially, Marki and Kellz :(

We proceeded, with our dance routine, minus a few adjustments. Man, it was a challenge to have improvised in 2 hours. Nonetheless, it was great!

Team CHC KL!
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In the artist room, waiting to be presented to the crowd :)
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My face looks retarded. Got long hair one!
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The many eyes watching us :) in Expo Hall 8, Changi Rd.
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Ahem, I accidentaly, flashed my camera. *glee
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Our Excelsior Hotel. There were mirrors EVERYWHERE.
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Waking up a little too hyper!
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Beautiful girls :)
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I love them both! :)
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With Shawn in the artist room.
He was 'warming up' his sore throat lol.
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With Dennis.
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.Shawn fascinated with Lester's Iphone :D
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Everyone do the Lester pose. Haha.
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Classic.
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@ Starbucks; Day 2. Shopping!

Will continue another time :)