Thursday, March 19, 2009

Source of procrastination.


Le sigh.

Why am I like this? (Mmhmm, I'm sure you're wondering what I'm babbling about).

Truth is, I am a hopeless romantic. Every time I discover a series that portrays the particular theme, I would sneak-a-peak, and if I happen to fall in love with it. . . there starts the procrastination.

On the other hand, I also think that it helps me relieve stress, sadness, or what not. Thus, a happier Sarah, and a livelier person to hang out with. Everyone say aye! :D *convinces self with conviction!*

So my current addiction would be, "Kkhotboda Namja aka Boys Before Flowers". Obviously, there are eye candies to boot, no wonder there are so many fangirls going crazy about this series. A luxurious setting does attract one to watch with more ease; well, that's me. I don't know about everyone else, but it seems more entertaining. Anyway-


A cast of four beautiful boys.
Beautiful > handsome.
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Sporty, I think. (Isn't it winter in Korea now?)
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Okay. The TRUE meaning of this picture was because I liked his outfit on that day, but I couldn't find one that fully exhibits his lovely coat and collar shirt. I wished my boyfriend would wear those clothes. *Swoons
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The oh-so-infamous stiff wedding photo. Lol.
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At least they're smiling right :)
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A gentleman who cleans and exudes kindness at the same time.
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Funny moments in the drama.
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The boy cooks! :D
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His sinful infatuation. God, they so belong together :(
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Oh btw, he is also an artiste. Group name: SS501.
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Hot outfit spotted! :D Love it!
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Photoshoot.
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Pretty boy photoshoot :)
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Charmed smile.
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:D
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Le sigh, seriously. This drama has some outfit galore going on. I love their outfits! Note to boyfriend: You should wear stuff like these okay :) I will love you even more. HAHA. I'm kidding, hun. (but wear it okay) *glee
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Second current craze;

DARKER THAN BLACK/
KURO NO KEIYAKUSHA.

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Synopsis (quoted from wikipedia)-

Ten years ago, an inscrutable and abnormal territory known as Hell's Gate appeared in Tokyo, altering the sky and wreaking havoc on the landscape. The heavenly bodies disappeared, replaced by false stars. During this time, people who possess various special abilities emerged. Kept secret from the masses, these individuals, known as Contractors, are able to murder in cold blood. Various nations and organizations around the world use Contractors as spies and assassins, often resulting in violent battles for information. Each fake star has a corresponding Contractor, and they vibrate when their Contractor's power is being used. As such, Contractors are usually identified by their star's Messier catalogue number. However, their abilities are gained at the cost of their humanity. They are implied to lack human emotions which includes no aversions to murder, and they are regarded as extremely rational and logical in their decision making. Contractors are thus named because of their need to always complete a remuneration or payment each time their power is used (ex. eating flowers, breaking fingers, drinking blood). It is not entirely clear what happens to one if he or she fails to complete the remuneration. Contractors are described as being psychologically compelled to complete their remunerative task.


Lead character: Hei. And he's awesome.
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Sometimes he goes with the soft look,
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Sometimes he goes with an adorable look,
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Apparently, he's also a sensitive being :D
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Sigh, I love bad boys who are sensitive as well. *swoon mode
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Badass face.
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Undisguising himself.
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Keiyakusha no me.
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Tears under the rain.
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Merciless only as a human would be.
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2 on 2.
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Despite possessing supernatural powers, he uses a gun too. Lol.
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Just watch the series if you'd like to know more. I liked it because it wasn't some typical anime with a typical storyline. It has some action, romance, drama, psycology thing going on; the catch is to catch it yourself. Though, I wished he fought better, and in a much cooler manner.

So, there goes my days of procrastination. Exam days are drawing closer, is this my means of displaying anxiety? I hope not. Or I'll be burried under a bottomless pit, filled with remorse.


Who in the world invented this process called the 'examination'?!
*glare*


P.s: Friend's Night @ City Harvest Church. Friday (20th March), 7pm-10pm! Be there, or you might miss out on something big :D!

Saturday, March 07, 2009

Stressing out till the finish line.


Exams are coming. It's coming so soon that I'm numb to the importance of it all. I never really wanted this. I was somewhat psychologically pushed into the fact that I have to get it done once and for all, or I'll be deemed indifferent and stupid.

Insomnia will kick in soon enough. Stress will lead to illness that I never wished I had. I hate all of this. I talk to them and it ends up in a pile of argument.

This isn't easy for me, MOM. I know you are doing all you can to make sure I get the best grades that anyone could ever get- distinction. I thank you for that. It's not that I'm not smart enough; but you're constantly breathing down my neck. I have no space, and I feel pressured. I am not you; I am not strong headed like you. Please, give me a break. I have many other problems to deal with, and you are not helping at all. Even if I fell sick, you never showed compassion, or love. All you do is blame me for being sick; saying that I brought it upon myself.

I'm sick of being told that I'm overly sensitive. I need someone who could accommodate that emotion into a positive vision. No one knows how difficult this is for me, no one knows that I'm trying my best, no one acknowledges the fact that I need unconditional support- no one.

Stop preaching to me on how to be a person; start being one yourself. The only difference that makes me a better person is that I try to make amends bit by bit. And I know how invisible I am to you. That is why I cannot stand to be myself in this family. I am not the filial daughter you wished I'd be.

My efforts are futile, and I end up lonely, just like the piercing cold wind.

Maybe that's why I have always relied on you.