Fools, begone.

Greetings back home in Msia again :)

Singapore has been great and now you'll see what I mean! Although it was a full two day activity which left us little time to explore the wonders of Singapore, we had loads of fun.

The night before flying off, I couldn't sleep till 3am. It was so difficult to wake up at 6.30am to continue packing and get ready. So, off I went sleepy as hell, like a zombie, to church.

Upon my arrival there, my dad said I couldn't take my piggie with me :( He said travel light. Oh well, I bade my goodbye to the poor thing in the car, and waited for Adam; who, is btw, supposed to reach earlier than us! :P

We had McD's for 'breakfast' and got into our plane. As soon as the 'safety belt' light went off, we camwhored -.-
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Representing CHC's talent; Shawn the rascal.
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This is Dennis.
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Our respected team leader; Adam.
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.Left to right: Dennis, Shawn, Uyi, Marki :D
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As soon as we arrived, we found out that Uyi couldn't get through the imigration. Unfortunately, he had to be sent back to KL for some confidential reasons. We were devastated, and discouraged. Or, rather, I was at least. Suddenly, I felt an element missing in our team but I still tried to put a smile on my face to help encourage everyone else. Especially, Marki and Kellz :(

We proceeded, with our dance routine, minus a few adjustments. Man, it was a challenge to have improvised in 2 hours. Nonetheless, it was great!

Team CHC KL!
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In the artist room, waiting to be presented to the crowd :)
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My face looks retarded. Got long hair one!
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The many eyes watching us :) in Expo Hall 8, Changi Rd.
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Ahem, I accidentaly, flashed my camera. *glee
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Our Excelsior Hotel. There were mirrors EVERYWHERE.
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Waking up a little too hyper!
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Beautiful girls :)
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I love them both! :)
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With Shawn in the artist room.
He was 'warming up' his sore throat lol.
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With Dennis.
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.Shawn fascinated with Lester's Iphone :D
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Everyone do the Lester pose. Haha.
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Classic.
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@ Starbucks; Day 2. Shopping!

Will continue another time :)

Twinkle, twinkle, little star.


It has been a busy week; not to mention travelling to Singapore to perform :)


Man, it has been amazing! I don't really have time to blog at the moment, so these are just previews!
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@ Singapore airport being jackuns
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Ecstatic!
Oh, on the side note, I was really amazed by the super fast escalators there! It's like gliding on water. Comparable to Tokyo's? Perhaps.
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On our arrival in Excelsior Hotel, we were being tourists again admiring every single thing. This was the seat, that was almost a full circle. And thus, birth camwhorers.
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I'll stop here for a bit.

I need to get all the pics within my grasp. Plus videos!

Asia Conference, here we come!

Try as if you've never failed before.


It's 5am in the morning, and I am feeling the pressure and stress coming from all angles. I made a decision to complete my education, but it's becoming more of a complicated matter.

My mother questioned my priorities, and unsurprisingly, it lies within my performing areas. She thinks I am not focused; I am only human. I was never the perfect daughter anyway.

I'm definitely more inclined to my passions if an opportunity opens. Why wouldn't I grasp it? Am I suppose to let it go because of exams, and studies? I don't think so. I don't think my calling belongs in such places. It's just one of those times in life where you feel that you know the touch of your calling, but you don't know yet, the places it would take you.

I am unable to sleep, I cry at random moments, and all this derives from being too self critical and pressured. My parents need to take two steps back and ask themselves why their daughter presented such unduly standards; they should have never been so hard on me. Albeit all that, I still want to be sure that I am doing something crucial in my life so they wouldn't think so lowly of me.

Then again, all I am reading is body language. They always emphasize on how much I assume, which I believe is wrongly accused. They are driving me to leave this home, and I am actually considering the factors.

Help me, anyone. I need someone who doesn't lecture life philosophies back at my face, but help me as I go along this treacherous road. I need an interactive solution.

Even kids have their moments.

The sun will be rising in 2hours.

I am not prepared to face failure once again.

What has happened to my self worth?

Why do I find it so hard to belong?

Why do I find it difficult to trust people's honesty?

Please God, I do not want to go back into depression.

Been there; it left scars on my body.

Blood and tears, I need someone.

I tried, I defended, but I did not do; I am falling.

Knowledge is spoonfed, applications are learned.
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"She lives the poetry that he cannot write. The others write the poetry that they dare not realise." - Oscar Wilde

Mom, this one is for you;

"The critic has to educate the public; the artist has to educate the critic."
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She lacks the indefinable charm of weakness.
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I do not shun away from the hectic schedules, but I am in need of a backbone. Too many adults; too little compromise. Try as I may, with the strength that I have, it has never been enough. My little achievements, mounted into a pile of achievements, but it has never been enough.

Answer this;

What do you want from me?
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Do not use me as the subject. Make it your own, pledge it with honesty. I'm tired of hearing the contradictions you throw at me.


Pens and paper, it does not atone.

I Emerged; did you?


Like I said, Emerge 2008 was a blast, and though the training of it all was excruciating and tiring, it was all for Him. Somehow, I always found the strength to carry on in rough currents; new friends who stood by to hear my ramblings and complaints. Of course, there were umpteenth times more fun than there were heartaches; to all my POS hunks and babes, I miss you guys loads! When I get my phone back, I will be spamming your inboxes with messages! :D

Sadly, our team came in second! But hey, it's not shabby at all :) Out of it all, we had a blast and that's what counts.

Talentime was, nerve-wrecking. I knew the stage wasn't meant for Latin shoes. After the whole dramatic incident, I'm glad I didn't trip over or fall :) The tip of my heel got stuck once, and I thought "oh shit" but all was good and kind when the worst did not occur.

Most people commented on the excellent dance performance, but I personally felt that it was below average. It had been a busy first day, and by the second day (Talentime day), I was feeling exhausted and fatigue ate me bit by bit. I only had 2 weeks to prepare, and thus the lousy quality. I wished I hadn't win, so to speak; I wanted to redeem myself next year. Nonetheless, Pastor Kong somehow saw the passion in us dancers, and decided to import us all the way to Singapore for the Asia Conference! Ecstatic; that's what I feel. I''m excited and I feel blessed to have attended CHC. It has been the ride of my life. And it's only the beginning of it all.
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Stretch your faith!
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Hey Cheryl!
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Babes being babes. xo`
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SMU foo foo foo!
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Our pretty last minute pyramid :)
Can you spot me?
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This, ladies and gents, was the most long awaited- nerve-wrecking event for me. Before the event, we(the combo dance team), realized that the props were soaked wet and incomplete. Therefore, we ordered some black paper to hide its flaws. Unfortunately, the delivery was not sufficient. Off we went (Adam&I), sprinting to Popular Book Store, to get more materials. We came back sweaty and tired, but still getting the props done were priority! Alas, in the end, we managed, and it looked like the below:

I was figiting about before going on stage.
So nervous okay! I think I was so restless, Kellz nearly got annoyed with me :( Sorry babes!
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This is my solo dance.
Man, it was a challenge to have danced in the suit!
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You guys rocked the stage! :)
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Marki the taxi driveress didn't stop for me :(
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See Aunty Sarah trying to stop the taxi :(
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Oooh, looks like fun ;)
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Haha, don't know what's with the 'act cute' face.
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Take that!
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Only managed to take a photo with one fellow dance member- SAM :( The rest all disappeared.
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Oh well,
An event to be remembered and anticipated once more next year :D
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It was wonderful and fulfilling. Grateful to have been a part of it; loved everything that happened these few months :) I Emerged, did you ?
Emerge 08.

xx

Lazy already :(

Using some capalang pixel camera to snap the after-blogging face. ;)

Singing off (yes, it's singing not signing), with -

You were my strength when I was weak;
You were my voice when I couldn't speak;
You were my eyes when I couldn't see;
You saw the best there was in me,
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach,
You gave me faith 'coz you believed,
I'm everything I am-
Because you loved me.

Goodnight people *wink

Give me a museum and I'll fill it;


Counting down to T-minus 5 hours and 40 minutes... bla bla secs.

To each his own; to do or do not- there is no 'try'. Kill or be killed- there is no 'try'.

The many years I've been trying to tell you that; and now I've finally found the right words. I think in a million years or more, I still wouldn't be able to define you as a whole. You are full of surprises and mysteries that there are times I cannot dig any dirt up. Slick as you may be, you never failed to be there for me and you always became my pillar of support, whether I liked it or not.


A small dedication before I write upon the real day - 6th of September:

• Thank you for always being around to get punched :)

Of course I mean it in a good way.

It's time for my holy obligations :p Will be back to update the status, till then;

T-minus 5 hours and 15 minutes;

Smile la, smile what? Huh!

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@12am
You were blessed with wonderful lyrics of a heart beating out of love.

@2am
Happy Sexy 19th Birthday syg.
Have a good one, coz you're gettin old ;)


Kampai to;
more late nights ;)
more cyber (what nots)
more outings
more care, attention and manja-ness
more Japanese food
more losing to me in sports
more scribbles
more secret whispers
more telepathy communication
more tender loving care
more phone calls
more everything :)

"The most eloquent silence; that of two mouths meeting in a kiss - to the many years that will come, fulfilling a lifetime of love."

I love it when we connect in our loving ways :)

You know what you had once you've lost it.

Hello readers! (if there are any),

I'm officially up and about blogging again (I hope). It's been a crazed 3 months for me and I believe none of it was coincidental. The people I've met, the things I've seen, the atmosphere I've experienced; they still linger at the tips of my finger.

Of course, there will be a time I'm busy again :P but, for now, I'll just savor the free time I have and express my imbecilic zany-like self.

Emerge 2008 was awesome once again! I had a hectic schedule and fervent daily activities! Nonetheless, it was definitely worth all the sweat, blood, pain, and tears. All the clusters were hyped up and though, we were all from different background/clusters, they would always stop by to lend a hand if you needed any.

I'll have to leave it here for the moment!

You guys rock my socks! Love you all to bits *xo
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Eagles like us wants to soar high!
SMU FOO to the extraordinaire!
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Loved every bit of it, cherished every moment, and we'll let the rest speak for itself :)

Will continue when I have more time and content :P