Wrestle thy affections.


I've officially lost my mojo to blog! Why am I so lazy :(

But, there is still hope! I am still writing on empty pages to keep the vocabulary intact and also to relieve stress.

So much has happened ever since I joined CHC, and I wonder whether it was ever a coincidence that I found my place. But He is always planning something great for each of us, and I will least try to make an effort to believe :)

Anyway, Dance My Love premiered a few weeks ago and it has been a blast despite sudden rushes of adrenalin numbing my body. During the first night, I felt scared, because I haven't been on stage for quite some time and was getting stage fright. I never felt so scattered in my life! I was here, there and everywhere; hair, make-up, wardrobe, accessories- you name it!

Quite an experienced felt, I'd say. I think I'd love to do another production as long as I'm free. So much with words, let's look at some of the pictures taken on stage :D

Presenting,

The infamous poster!
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Our elegant ballet team :)
*There you can see David Oh, acting as the ballet instructor and also a dad to one of the main cast.
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Spot the not: ZOUK >> ZUOK.
Our very own beatboxer doing his thang again :p
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Smooth Gees having a moment!
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Mimers!
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They were awesome lol ;p
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'Tyler' looks lost. Jorida was on set too :)
[So You Think You Can Dance finalist]
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Two main characters.
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Scene of the day: Nerd dancers!
They never fail to crack me up.
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Awesome :D
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Monsieur Justin and me.
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Lol, I didn't know Justin covered so much of his face!
Wondered how he manage to guide me :p
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Our very own hip hoppers! Hawt :D
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Smooth Gees in action :)
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Final retro dance scene :)

It was great; we all had fun.

xx

Tagged by Cayman & Huifen:

1) What is the relationship between you both?
Friends [Cayman]; Friend, cell member [Huifen]

2) 5 impressions of him/her:
Huifen:
- Caring
- Hillarious
- Hardworking
- Helpful
- Smiles all the time
Cayman:
- Friendly
- Helpful
- Sociable
- Intelligent
- Colorful

3) Most memorable things she/he has done for you:
Keep sandwiches for me after dance practice [Huifen]
Don't really talk much with Cayman, so I'm not sure.

4) The most memorable she/he has said to you:
"Get well soon, yeah?" [Huifen]
Like I said, I didn't get to talk much to Cayman, soo.. :(

5) If he/she becomes your enemy, you will...
feel awkward [both]

6) If he/she becomes your lover, they will have to improve on:
Lol, not sure what to say here ;p

7) If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason is:
I 'stole' your guitar [Huifen]
Coz, the Devil got jealous :P [Cayman]

8) The most desirable thing to do to him/her:
Haha, is this question written correctly?

9) The overall impression on him/her:
Both:
Friendly :)

10) How do you think the people around you feel around you?
Awkward sometimes!

11) Your character is:
Define all here meh -.-"

12) What do you hate about yourself?
The inability to trust people.

13) The most ideal person you want to be is:
I'm ideal enough right? :p Nola, hmm, I think idealism doesn't last long.

14) For the people who cares about you and like you, say something to them:
Thank you to whoever you may be :) I appreciate all the love and care that you have given to me! Thank you, thank you, thank YOU! [Man, I sound like a beauty pageant contestant, lol]

Ten people to tag:
1) Darren
2) Ethan ( I know he won't do it ;p)
3) Jian Eu
4) Samuel Chew
5) Delvin
6) Jeffrey
7) Shawn
8) Amy
9) Carmen
10) You! :D

Who is no. 2 having a relationship with:
HAHAHAHA.

Is no.3 a male or female?
What do you think?

If no.7 and 10 got together, would it be a good thing?
Hmm, it depends on who 'You' are.

How about no.5 and 8?
Weird. Totally, weird. LOL

What is no.1 studying?
Ain't studying no more. Working :)

Is no.4 single?
The last time I asked, yes ;p

Wahliao, damn tired to do a meme lor. T_T
I'm off to leisure land now :D

Toodelahs!

If it means to keep you ;


Sudden wars of vulgarities, you know we both don't really mean it. At some point, this has got to stop. This cannot continue forever. I held my breath for as long as I could, and I am still holding; I'm sure you are too.

Pray and have mercy upon the things you are doing to me. Whether you say it blatantly to the open or not, there are times I can feel the vague feeling of betrayal taking its place. Spare me your glares and disgust when I behave childishly. It only happens when I am with you. It shows that there are things in me waiting to burst, but kept compressed in my hollow chest. There are just so many things to say to you, but somehow backfires when the time is necessary.

Although, I'm occupied with the things I am doing now, I never fail to feel a pang of guilt in my heart, not accompanying you at night. I don't say it, I don't show it, doesn't mean I don't feel it. But there are days I question, my presence towards you; it just makes me vulnerable to know that I am sacrificing so many things, just so you'd keep noticing me.

I try to depend on myself, but yet I feel the void residing in me. I need you because I love you. And that's how it has always been. You just don't know how important you are, until maybe... one day.

These past few days, my heart has been aching. I know why, I just don't want to succumb myself into believing it because I know, it will break my heart even more.

Nonetheless, I still love you as always.

Stepping up the game.


Continuing my previous post.

Time is of the essence nowadays. I'm so busy, I don't even go online anymore! Oh well, I know you still miss me dear :)

Anyway, back to Singapore (finally)

Day 2 was pretty much a hang out day because service was in the morning ;p but nonetheless, we were still exhausted.

After dancing our last session for the event, we were free to roam around the wonders of Singapore. With Lester as our guide, thank the Lord we did not get lost :)

As you can see here, Kellz is trying to cross the busy road. But to no avail.
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Being the other one who crosses roads slow all the time, Jia Hao got pulled into the fanatic moment! *You can see Marki pointing at them, lol.
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Jia Hao looks like a prisoner in the end. Tsk ;p
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Oooh! I stepped on the F1 track. It was a delicious moment! :D
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Where spectators witness the esteemed f1 cars zooming across!
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The shopping mall we were at- Marina Square.
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Being a jackun here, because it was the first time I saw so many flat screens on a wall :D
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The two lovebirds having a romantic photo session! Haha ;p
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Tired :(
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Then Lester decided to join our clowny troupe. Now, no doubt, he IS one of us- jackuns.
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Kellz enjoying her RM25 meal. LOL
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Marki was so hungry she didn't even pose!
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Our infamous beatboxer :D
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Tour guide aka, the one who called me short!
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Groupie picture :D

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That ends the awesome S'pore trip!

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Our production 'Dance my love' was a success. Though, I am not ecstatic about my routine, and performance, I think it was alright overall. In the end, I was feeling a little remorseful about changing the cheorography on the last day to entertain Pastor Kevin, but at least we tried. I was just feeling down thinking about this performance. I could have done so much more but I guess I have to let it go and move on. I would definitely step up the game, next time around.

Overall, it was entertaining and I got my parents for once to watch me do something else other than studying. Their pressence there was appreciated. Thanks :)

I shall post pics, once I get them so, just keep logging in to check on me! ;)

*Oh, before I forget, the next post would be a tag post. Cayman tagged moi :D