Thursday, December 21, 2006

The greatest torture...

is to be uncertain and unsure.

Dear God,

Please help Adam to go through his current ordeal. It was a sudden shock for all of us. Give him strength to be strong. Please help ease his family's pain. I hope that you would protect his wife, Nicole and daughter Ammeryse from the shock and pain their going through. He is still young and active, so please God, don't abandon him now as his life is just starting to bloom. Please heal him and make him better once again. I pray that he will be alright soon. Help take the worrysome thoughts away as it's only a few days more before Xmas. Bless him Lord, for he did not ask for this. Let him live his life once again.

Amen.

Adam, my prayers goes out to you and your family tonight. I hope you will be well. We all will miss you this Xmas but please recover soon. We love you Adam, don't leave us now :(

Lotsa love,
Sarah.

May the angels sing a song of serendipity tonight.

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

Guess who's back?

Okaerinasai! =)

Minna san wa ogenkii?

It was gross, and cold but fun.

It was like a nightmare but a dream.

It had no hot water.

It only had the cool breeze as an air cond.

Bugs were all around.
squeek, squeek, chirp chirp, miao miao, crikety crick!

No hairdryer!

No piggy to hug.

No distilled water to drink =( >coz of this I had 4 ulcers<

There were lizards on the rooftop!

Floors weren't squeeky clean.

I was on military ground!

I was flying up in the sky.

I rushed and walked my way out of the bushy and slippery jungle.

... and sadly I came back with a sprained foot. *cries* Lol

Food was good but not so great...still! I can't complain; it was edible.

Everywhere I went, I brought a jacket.

An energetic wake up call in the morning :)

... Did I mention bugs? All the bugs were found near my area :(

Heavy bags. Heavy...heavy bags.

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But I, Sarah, has survived the fun but not so clean experience!
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I'm extremely happy and overwhelmed to say that I'm back!
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Anyone missed me? *bats eyelashes*
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Aww.. I missed you guys too! :D
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Well, now you can see me all you want! Coz I'm back and alive...
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... From camp. Haha. Unfortunately, I FORGOT to bring my cam, so no pics :( *I know, I know, I'm terrible. But not all is lost. I might have pics from other ppl who took. See if they could send it to me =)*

Now, I can have a nice hot shower, a comfy comfy bed, my teddies and my gadgets! Muahhahaha =D Computer, animes, and tv- HERE I COME :)

Xmass is coming. Have you guys finished your xmass shopping?

Coming up next : My wishlist ... *laughs*

Jingle bells ~~ Batman smells and Joyyyy joyyy to the world... coz I'm backz :P *Kiddin ya'll*

Ta!
xoxo

Thursday, December 07, 2006

It's those small things that matter

I remembered the first time I heard this was a year after I left school. I was taking a lot of things for granted and my parents brought me to my senses.

"It's the small things that matter. Climb your way up to success. Nothing good will come out of getting spoonfed."

Though then, I thought it was bitterly harsh, I never once forgot. After I complain about a certain matter which I detest and hate, I will regain my composure with just those simple words.

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Recently, I've read a lot about Lee Joon Ki- korean actor. His life wasn't all that great before he became a popular and sought after actor. Looking at him for the first time, made me think that he had everything; good looks, his fans, his fun loving but sensitive personality, etc.

But reading more and more about him makes me think twice before I judge someone by the first impression. I was totally wrong. I won't elaborate much but his family don't live together, and he started out in Seoul only with 300 bucks.

He's successful now and going further to be an accomplished, respected and dedicated actor.

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There is more to life than just looking good, or having the best of looks. The effort and attitude are those that matter. You'll never know when luck will strike but it's only with the amount of hard work that grants us that "miracle".

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People always think that I'm a baby; that I don't try. I guess I'm misunderstood there. Hurts though, but I'm still alive right? There was a part of me who always wanted to be better than others. That competiveness kept me going. Now, it's as if the light has gone out. I'm really trying to figure whether I did anything wrong, or I'm just not meant to do the things I wanted to do.

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I really have no idea what's keeping me going these days. I wake up at odd hours and to be honest I don't like that fact, but somehow, it revolves around my comfort zone. I don't know where to go. While all my friends are already going to college and pre-u, it's not the same for me. My life is a lil more complicated than you think. I've never forgiven my parents for what they made me live through but I also have never given up on studies to pursue what I love. It's very hard being in that position for years and it hurts whever I do something wrong, because people make it sound as if I've detonated a bomb, killing millions of people.

Maybe this is life, but I don't want my life to be this way. I'm not prepared to lose everything- from loved ones to being a normal teen. I'm not mentally ready to sacrifice. Maybe one day, I will realize that no one is ever ready to do certain things.

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Words, they can be inspiring, and spirit boosting, but they also can break you into pieces. Frankly, I can pretend to not like something or someone, but I can never pretend to like something/someone. The words they say could easily break me or mend me. I'm still unable to accept my current situation and the more I sink into denial, the more I will lose out. My mind is getting abused...and I dare not lift a finger to protect it.

That's about it I guess. Random thinking and reflecting. I'm always expecting the worst nowadays but hoping for the best sometimes.

*Lee Jun Ki > Your dance moves, cheerful, playful and sensitive character always makes me want to live a better life. I can always count on you whenever I'm broken. I really thank you for existing and keep up the good work =) Work hard and live up to your dreams! Your songs really describe a part of who I am.

Aza aza fighting!! Bbahsya :)

Saturday, December 02, 2006

Nightdreams

If I'd expect - I would probably die with the lost of hope;
If I'd hope - I would probably die for not expecting to know.
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Honto ni gomenasai...is all I could say.

"If only you'd know that the sadness I display, isn't meant to hurt you but to let you know that you could comfort me, when I'm in need." - Babychocolattes, 06

Goodnight, my dearest.
<3<3<3

If only you'd know...

You looked so fresh from afar,
Your classroom door, left ajar;
Everytime, I'd pass by you,
Just to have a glance of your new hair-do.
As glancing days passed by,
The closer we got,
The messages went unnoticed,
Only for something new to suffice.
Time was testing our assertiveness,
For only time could show us the way,
What was to come and may,
Will be something good to stay.
I wouldn't have thought that we'd be,
But God has opened up my eyes,
For me to see that,
What was a destiny,
Was just right in front of me.
While everything now seemed bland,
I know that I'm more than a best friend,
Love doesn't have to be grand,
Love doesn't need to be planned:
Trying to reach out to you,
In hope of the happiness that was always there,
Only thing lacking, was the nurturing and care,
Because of you, my heart seems broken,
But it's only the love inside, left unspoken;
If only you'd know...

*Having to have not brought my Malay literature book, I went into your class. Amongst everyone else, without a single thought, I headed straight to your desk, blushing intensely; asking you whether I could borrow your book. As quickly as I came in, I sprinted out*

Friday, December 01, 2006

Moshi watashi o aitakatta...

...you would say this:

Scenerio

My girlfriends and I just came out from the movie theatre.

"Let's go and eat some pasta shall we?" I suggested.

"Alright! Why not? Let's go!" They answered, enthusiastically.

Meanwhile... in the car, my baby darl missed me and so he called.

Him: Hey babe, where are you now?
Me: Hey baby!! Um, I'm with my friends, outside the theatre going to eat pasta now.
Him: Can we meet? *Puppish tone*
Me: Eh?.. but I'm with my friends.
Him: Must you really eat pasta today?
Me: We all agreed already wor...

Getting a lil tense...

Him: Why must you eat it today?! Don't eat! Come meet me okay?
Me: But...

Manglish starts to appear...

Him: Tell them you have some urgent matters to attend to lah!
Me: Huh....uh..
Him: Can la..can la..
Me: Wouldn't it be... *Interrupted*
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Him: I'll buy you a whole Itallian restaurant! Okiesh? I'm picking you up now!

*Hangs up*

Leaves a confused but a very very happy, delighted ME! Lolz :)