Starbucks!

You Are a Frappacino

At your best, you are: fun loving, sweet, and modern At your worst, you are: childish and over indulgent You drink coffee when: you're craving something sweet Your caffeine addiction level: low

What Kind of Coffee Are You?

Yay! i'm frappacino! So now you know what to get me @ starbucks! lol >"<

Weather?

Beautiful yet dangerous People will stop and watch you when you appear Even though you're capable of random violence You are best known for: your power Your dominant state: performing

What Type of Weather Are You?

I am lightning =.=

Dominant style : performing! so true la =P

I is powderful lol! LMAO hahahah !!
One more question!
What would you like your name to stand for if you could choose ?

[S] - Sporty
[A] - Athletic
[R] - Rare
[A] - Alluring
[H] - Hot

That's what I think of NOW haha who knows what it would stand for..like... tomoro? LoL!

Race of time, of that heart of mine...

In times of need,
"Please stay", I plead,
I know that it wasn't for greed,
But why do you watch me bleed?

I sleep at night;
Knowing that the future might be bright,
But it frightens me that when I did no wrong,
I'm inevitably meant to fight,
To fight for what was lost...

But everytime I fight;
I feel that it is a fight, no more than one-
Only me and no one else,
It's so pathetic that I can't be helped,
But in the end,
I hope to see the light,
That will lead me to a better sight,
Somehwere I could feel no more pain,
and have everthing else to gain...

I wonder how long I am to suffer;
With my dearest of all taken away,
Would it be forever?
Would it be never?

Although it was a mistake,
What I see now; I cannot take,
It seems that you are happy with what's at stake,
It wouldn't even matter if I would break.

If what you say could be kept,
Show me soon and not neglect,
I still have to wait in my own little trap,
Waiting for the day that I could be cared,
and once again the passion would have flared...

When actions and words do not match,
It's time to stop and think what's lacked?
I am but a ticking bomb,
For you and only you to catch,
To disarm what could be bad,
And save me from being sad,
For all I asked for is for you to think,
Am I worth this much?
Or am I too fragile to keep as such?
I'm over here, sending you a nudge,
To save me from this grudge;
Not a grudge for you but what was done,
When we could have improved and had more fun,
But I wasnt' given a chance,
To be the sun,
That shines through your heart,
And be the one...

How much am I worth?

Seriously, that's a question I don't have an answer to, or I don't know how to answer it. The way I see it is that I'm weak and vulnerable most of the time. For example, people tend to use me a lot; doing stuff for them when convenient, asking me to help with assignments but ends up, I do most of it, and also preparing things such as tickets, bookings, making calls and doing the paperwork. Use me when they like it and neglect me when they feel I'm not useful.

True friends for example, they are supposed to be there even when you don't ask. During my emotional state last few months, there were friends there for me, but sooner or later, I think they got tired of me, and they couldn't take the whines and cries. Before that, they were kind, friendly and even some told me that they liked me. But sooner or later, it was all but a dream. There are no such things as staying at the side of our friends whenever, wherever they're down. They were there to get the juicy news; nothing more, nor less. After all that, I do realize who my true friends are. As of now, I feel there are only 2.

I need leadership lessons and stop caring about what other ppl might feel because most of the time, what they feel is only temporary and they don't see that I care. I need to be more firm, to the point, and not be afraid to voice out my thoughts and take critisisms in exchange. Even if I am alone in this world with no one else, I hope to stand my ground and lift no frown for no one. Once I've made a decision, it's time to execute it. I should practice how to be strong and earn respect later on, not for the things I do, but for who I am.

Although, it sounds abit "impossible for Sarah" as some ppl would say, I will try my best and strive until I can strive no more.

So in your opinion, whoever who's reading this blog, what do you think?
Am I cheap, expensive, or priceless?

Your Love Style is Agape

You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner. Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare. You are willing to sacrfice your world for your sweetie. Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you. For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love.

What's Your Love Style?

A lil "announcement"

I've been feeling a lil out of place lately...Don't know why but I'm hoping to come out of this soon.
But for now i'll just take it easy for a bit and try to start blogging again. =) Enjoy this though...

People Envy Your Compassion
You have a kind heart and an unusual empathy for all living creatures. You tend to absorb others' happiness and pain. People envy your compassion, and more importantly, the connections it helps you build. And compassionate as you are, you feel for them.

What Do People Envy About You?

All American Kid

Popular but not plastic. Athletic but not a jock. Smart but not a brain. You were well rounded and well liked in high school.

Who Were You In High School?

More to come! Take more tests first xD

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This shows how bored I am :P

Oishii no sushi !

Today, I made sushi with my mentor @ my mentor's house with my mentor's mom-in-law :P 3 ladies making food. Anywayz, it was great but it took us so long to make! Frm 12noon until 2.30! We made around...well I don't know...was too busy eating, but it was more than 200! pieces =X hahahah!! It tastes good too. Oh, how I wish u guys can have A TASTE of this.. heaven? mMmM ~

Introducing....! Sushi no.1! It has cucumber, chicken floss, carrots, and NIHON no mayonese.

I wanted to make a smilie face but it didn't really looked like one =(

Food taster says ? ..
I don't know because he was looking up into the heavens! nyahahaha =)

Main courses *OoOh LaLa*

I was bored ~ I felt hungry ~ A lil frustrated, restless, happy, sad, blur and many many more! And with that put together you get a "craving 4 food Sarah". So I decided to write on foods. So Please the next few entries will be food...food.. oh GLORIOUS food!

It's lamb ya'll! Looks so delicious !!!~~

Which chinese doesn't know this?!

Which MalaySIAN doesn't know this?!

Which guai lou doesn't know this!?

Dim sum ~~ (it IS considered a main course mmkay!)

Char kuey teow? Not just any ckt, it is the PENANG char kuey teow...*Mmm~

Appetizers * Ready? Set? .. Munch! *

The most common appetizer - garlic bread. Looks tasty rite? :P

Guess what this is? ... Calamari ler -.-" Looks tasty-iocious too!

Haha. One of my favs for appetizers *drools* I just love creamy mushroom soup!

Haha. I know who's favorite this is. (ain't gonna tell =P) But its Cheesy NACHOS! Heaven!

Desserts *Yummiez*

Haagen Dazs *drool...drool... this cup .. so small ler T_T expensive ice cream =3. 20 minutes finish already!

Peppermint anyone?

Baskins...MmMmm ~

OoOh..Fancy =P

Tropical ice cream xD

Ice cream with waffles! yum!!!

River rafting xD

I just got back frm a very very VERY tiring day *yawns*. But just before my enthusiasm fades out I want to say that I had a great time river rafting today! I still don't have the pictures because another mom took it. Hope to post it up soon! =) Okie...I think that's it? HAHAHA! Doesn't it sound enthusiastic? :D

Chio for now ^^

Poems [Read it at your own risk]

I have a few poems that I wrote lately~ But the thing is it's not happy happy ones >"<.

Well, Looks like i was destined to write haha! I wanna emphasize that this are just POEMS. Don't be too emo about it. It's the way i write. Hope ya'll understood! xoxo

Thoughts
I'm drifting on a float of thoughts,
With every word flowing out, my pen,
I write, with confusion circling my zen,
Insecurity is what I feel; thoughts...

Why does one feel as such,
When there was really nothing much,
To ponder, wonder and worry about,
It only adds to my petty doubts.

I am in a dreadful dillema;
Drowned in worrysome thoughts,
Thoughts, which you could've eased;
But the pressure is banging on my head-
I really wished that I was dead.

Till death do us apart
I hate to be led on;
Often to no results,
Only by the words spoken;
and promises made,
But when I needed you;
You weren't there to aid-
My soul whom is crumbling,
Because of the lack of warmth,
That I held before,
If I'm not what you seek for,
If I'm not the one you adore,
Spare me from this nightmare,
If you don't want to care,
But to the two that you share;
It's totally unfair,
Choose one and be done,
Before in my hand I hold a gun,
Wrapped in sadness, I'd be stunned,
Kill myself, and be done.
What's left will only be one;
The one that will not be the love of your life,
You've let your chances slip,
and you'll start to feel like shit,
Even if you were to be a man now,
The one sinful thing you can't atone;
Is when you visit me at my grave;
Infront of my tomb stone.

Confined to explore
Locked up in your own black heart,
Frankly, I don't even know where to start,
Your needs to explore; I understand,
But things need to be cleared up:
You and I,
Because each time I think about it,
I always, always, sigh...
So, What do you want with me,
Is your "pleasure" what you want me to see,
Or is it just an act,
or an excuse,
or do you just like to leave me by a thread,
Going no where, but only to dread,
What that was meant to be,
Has been torn so deeply,
I'm getting tired; so sleepy,
You've almost drained the most out of me,
For all I am now,
Is all broken;
All shaken...

Random questions

Awesome people I want to meet:
~ Kwon Boa
~ Namie Amuro
~ Supermodels
~ Josh Harnett
~ D.Becks
~ God (The Big Guy:P)
~ Takeshi kaneshiro
~ Yoshihiro Andoh

Things I can't live without:
~ My handphone
~ Computer
~ Food! (a DuhH)
~ Music!
~ My huge huge teddy bear

I wish I could:
~ Fly
~ Help the poor
~ Drive
~ Meet God
~ Work for cash
~ Trust again

I want:
~ To shop
~ Music diploma
~ Travel the world
~ To be around my love one
~ To dance latin!
~ To do extreme sports! (Mountain hiking, White river rafting, Ab-sailing, bungee jumpiN!, etc)
~ Be successful

Songs that I think are awesome:
~ Nickleback - Savin me
~ Inuyasha - Angelus
~ Namie amuro - Come
~ Gavin degraw - I don't wanna be
~ I write sins not tragedies
~ Ochestra songs (LoTR, beethoven, pachabel, etc)
~ Hero
~ Rhianna - Unfaithful
~ Dido - Thank you & White flag
~ Boa - Valenti, Shine we are, No.1
~ Pussycatdolls - Don't cha, buttons, Stick wit' chu
~ Shakira - Hip's don't lie

How I see myself in ten years:
~ Having a career
~ Aged 27
~ Love wise; I don't know
~ A bit wiser

Random facts:
~ I'm quite vain
~ I like to look nice :P
~ Love music and dance
~ Loves anything Japanese
~ A very loyal person
~ Sweet & sour :P

Misconceptions:
~ I'm a dropout from school
~ I'm a lonely person
~ I'm bitchy
~ I'm stupid
~ I know how to play the electone really well
~ Hopeless romantic

What are your facts and desires?

A night out with "pirates"

Lick 'em!

Evidence left by very hungry people :D

Happy posers :P frm left: (Jon, Neal, Hx, Alon)

Oh? Guess who?

Aiyark >"< this pic is...argh nvm ! The baby that we saw at coffee bean =) SO cute ler the way he acted :P Kawaii~~

Ohohoho :P what is THIS?! Who's the giving hand? xD

Wue dak so kind ah !!! Piggyback-ing the guest of honor :P

Neal and his boxers. Jon seems to be advertising it for him lol !!

"Need me to help you with ur bowlin balls Jehan?" Jon asks.
"Oh, no need to ... I...can... uhrmm.. uh... ma..na....ge~", says the struggling Jehan.

One so happy, One so drunk-ed

My first pic of tw! wweeeee ~~ but this is a sleeping pic =.= sigh~ Need to work harder *Rawr

Stoner :D *Requested :P nyahahha

Look into my eyesss *hypnotize*

Introducing the fantastic 4?

"Juliet oh Juliet, thou's beauty shall ... etc etc hahaha I'm not that poetic ler :P" This is the "hotlink" version.

"How would I look if i wore that?" eh ? eh?!

Grandma & grandpa we lub you :D

It takes 3 to be a crowd! Cheer for neal ya'll!

Wue Dak looks intimidated in this pic hahahaa !! What did Leen do to you! Btw, leen dear you look a bit gangster-ish la :P lol

It's never fair

Every morning I wake up and look at myself in the mirror, I go like "I don't like my hair today" or "I feel fat today" or "Why can't I have nicer eyes". Yes, I'm quite vain, thank you very much. But I cannot help wondering about celebrities or people who are born with nice and almost flawless physiques :( Why doesn't God create me that way? I want to be attractive and pretty too :D But no, I'm ended up here like this. Let me show you a few examples of females who look great naturally...

Kwon Boa
Cute, gorgeous and sporty! I just love her hair :D Though I know this pic of her looks really scary =X but overall she has nice features!

Megan Lai
She has milky skin and a nice body! Her body is to die for! I like her smile =P I want!! I want!!

Rainie Yang
Her hair I just love. Her cuteness, so adorable! She has a nice face :) Arh! Just too cute >"<

See what I meant by unfair-ness! It's just like, some people who are born with model-like features, gorgeous body, beautiful eyes, or born into a well-to-do family, explore all you want, get what you want, etc. But needless to say, we also have to appreciate what we have as not everything in life is given. Appreciate that we have a home, food to eat, a tv and computer to entertain us, handphones and clothes to wear. Though I am envious of ppl who have great outlooks, nevertheless I am GRATEFUL that I don't look like....

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Hahahah!! Well, Thank the Lord! :P

Like they say; "Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder."

I've lost...

This entry will be quite emo. So if you dont want to read this then dont even scroll down ur eyeballs. It's a poem I wrote, randomly:-

I've lost the one thing which is dear,
I've lost my purpose to be here,
When will my path be clear,
Where no one could interfere.

I've lost my heart and mind,
To make up for love and lost time,
What ever that was mine,
Has been covered up with blinds.

I've lost the vision to see,
What is right for me,
But it WAS meant to be, so...
Will it ever come back to me?

Words never seem to convince me nowadays. I'm still stuck in my ditch and I'm waiting the someone to pull me out. The lord is not taking mercy on me. I'm hurting in my heart. I don't know why I even talk or come in relation with "it". I feel abit clingy and cheap. What am I supposed to do? Under the circumstances I am in, I have no idea why I'm being so fucking kind. Argh, I hate my personality. And to make matters worst, I'm pms-ing like shitz. I dislike what I put myself through just with the reason of "It's my nature. I really can't be bad". Which is outmost a true statement.

Sometimes, I feel that I'm hanging by a thread, so God, this is the time You're suppose to help me. Because I'm breaking into finer pieces as I walk the plank. I tried to enjoy myself, but this is one the times where I feel like I'm at my breaking point. Any suggestions? Please, I would appreciate if there are. This is a fucking ditch I don't want to be. Being angel like = no fun. Being naughty at times = taken seriously. So wtf am I supposed to be?! I efforts and attempts never seem to be seen. It's either too little or too much. You know what? Fuck everything. I've tried and it seems like I've been taken for granted. Where is the death angel when you need him...

Maturity

What is maturity? According to the dictionary it means; The state or quality of being fully grown or developed. I would agree to the definitions. Though it is a very general meaning, being matured is something that takes time, discipline and effort. As for me, I can't say that I'm fully matured because I'm not and I have yet a lot more things to learn and to improve on. From the way I look at this, maturity moulds first when you have the attitude. The positive attitude towrads improving ones self. I will state down a few things about maturity from my p.o.v, but it will be more of the mentality area instead of a "matured growth" which is more to physical.

You know you're on the way to being more matured when you:-

- are responsible
- sensible
- organized
- compassionate
- considerate
- understanding of situations
- don't contradict yourself
- honor your word
- have visions and goals
- self-reliant
- can control your emotions to fit in different circumstances
- don't complain about petty things in life
- know how to appreciate
- have leadership qualities (be it a little or a lot its fine)
- know how to talk sense
- can have intelligent conversations
- learn how to improve yourself for the better
- can adapt to situations
- can speak up for yourself
- admit to your own mistakes
- when you have your own state of mind; not easily influenced

I think there are many other qualities that can be stated. But for now, this was what that came to my mind. If anyone thinks that I'm self-proclaiming to be a matured person because I wrote this, please read the top again.

Values can be stated, but to have them; its a different story.

(-babychocolattes, 2006)

You know...

Sarah is pms-ing when she:-

- Doesn't give a fuck about what you say
- Always say she's feelin fat
- Comes online emo
- Doesn't answer phone calls
- Gets irritated about everything ppl say
- Scolds the hell out of her stupidly annoying brother for doing the tiniest of things
- Doesn't care about anything
- Cries because she is emo
- Feels more than misery

Sarah is happy when she:-

- Smiles at everything (be it bad or good)
- Laugh at ppl's jokes and sometimes alter it
- Gets into the fun
- Works out everyday
- Blogs a lot
- Looks clean and fresh (not emo, sad, not dressing properly...)
- Sleeps early
- Talks with a cheerful tone
- Starts being playful
- Starts challenging you
- Starts dancing (Oh! Shakira shakira ~~ I wanna learn!)
- Doesn't mind critisisms

Hmmm.. 2 personalities for now =) Wanna know more? wait lor ~ HAhahahah xD

Ciao! I was bored, you can't blame me for doin this! LoL!

Aye, Captain!

A last minute plan by the guys, after dinner, they wanted to watch a movie. Not knowing whether there were enough tickets or watever, they went there early. Fortunately for them, it was not fully booked, nor sold out. Lucky us we got to watch the Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead man's chest =)

Overall, the show was great! I loved every sec of it. Kept me in my seat and not even wanting to go and pee when I had to go badly =P hahahaha. I stayed till the end ! Capt Jack Sparrow roxorr xD But i loved all the action and humor in it. It definitely was a worthy show to watch =)

Temp. Leader of the cannabalism tribe(TLotCT): Oh? What's for dinner?
William: Psst* Jack! It's me! Elizabeth is in danger you gotta help me...
TLotCT: *Tries to not recognize him* [turns to one of the cannibals and say]...Oh, chukulat sat sat eat eat mum mum cookku hhiimm ok ok? miao miao! (Cannibal language)
Cannibal: *Rawrs to his other comrads* eat eat mum mum cham cham MIAOOO!!~
TLotCT: (Whispers to Will).."So sorry mate..."
William: Pirates~

William: Will she be able to help me find Elizabeth? he thinks...
Capt Jack: Oh bother, this is one scary woman! Wonder if she has any dirt? *looks around her house*
Baldy: Oh! Sexay lady *beams* lol

Capt. Jack: Oy crew, me brought us new and VICIOUS crew members!

*In his head - Oh bugger =\*

*You are now witnessing 2 overgrown human hamsters in battlemode.

This picture is just stupid. LoL! I can't laugh nor get scared. I just find his 'tentacles' very funny hahahah *falls off chair*. He's like an overgrown...uh...somethin? octopus? no..can't be...mixed blood. I wonder what other blood...*shivers*

Baldy: Eh mate, I think we're in trouble.
Skinno: Yeah dude, should we treasure our lives or this chest more? *wonders*
Baldy: *Thinks for a bit* Ou..r... nono.. the box?
Skinno: Yeh...*reflects* eh? the box? But what's init?
Baldy: I dunno...
Skinno: So what'd we do now?

3 kids who didn't wanna grow up from being pirates. tsk tsk. What were they fighting for? Oh..for that you have to watch the movie =P I dowan to be a spoiler *nyahahahaha*

"Oh Elizabeth my love! I will sail to the ends of world to save you from the confining bars of that unhonorable fool that imprisoned you! I will! Wait for me..."

"Argh! I hate wearing these pirate clothes. Makes me look boobless =( Unlike my corset! But for you Will, I will find you, using this...uhm..er... weird compass that could..hm.. Well if anything goes wrong blame Jack."

This is how I looked when I came back =P (Actually just cam whoring only la. I was so tired -.-" look so stressful ler =( not cute edi >"<

blerkz :P I shall go to bed now ~ niterz all !