Disappear.

A little delay on the last pictorial post. Venting of frustrations in progress.

Watched and laughed,
Called and stoned,
Talked; the defeated,
Wished and left.

Restlessness and anxiety,
Anguish with a stronghold,
No answer, left alone; cold,
Bars but not walls.

Stealing; reminded of guilt,
Hesitation to commit,
There is nothing more to lose,
Only one can choose.

Cooked, so tedious,
Stood up and faced the steam,
Menu with 2 dishes;
Fettucini & an egg.

Stared at the radiant white light,
Sadly, it doesn't stare back,
Gorged like a glutton...
Crystal pearl droplets materialized,
Hear the heart shatter.

Confusion has never been this doubtful,
Nor has it took control,
But for now,
As the days ensues,
Pain fades away:
Numbness.

Pardon the distorted, unstructured, un-understandable grammar. You might just know it's hidden meaning, one day. It's time to tell myself once again, that I was and am still enamored by the charming smile, warmth and intimacy; now without a face.

The past was ideal,
The present improved,
The future intricate,
The feeling of not knowing what to do-
A torturous void.

Have a nice morning :)

<3 buzzkins. Watashi wa anshin shimasen kara, uso o iienaide kudasai. Shinjite desu kara.
Kono kokoro no kega wo jyubun deshita. Fukuzatsu no koto o wakarimasu kedo,
kore kara, doko e ikeba iin desu ka. . . Itsu owaranai kanaa.
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Mo, tsukaremashita. Itsu mo ooi ni kangaeteimasu. Kyo wa atarashii no hi desu. Isshokenmei ganbarimasu, datte, anata ga hoshi kara. Zettai ni makenai.