When you have nothing nice to write...

... Don't write it. Don't speak of it. Don't have anythin to do with it.

Shruging it off is the key to keeping a brain sane. In my case, MY brain.

Muaahahhahaha ;P Nola, I'm not emo-ed. Read my magnificent thoughts (though, it's not everything) and comment! It's worth it! Will lurve ya'll loads :) *wink wink*

*current resolution: Pumpin up da confidence yo!

"Don't judge me as a character, but as a person."

You can't always get what you want. You've done your part and now it's time to let the fortune wheel come your way. But in knowing that... it's always difficult when it comes to letting it be; especially when it's somethin close to heart.

Sometimes it's appealing/relieving to get a reason, comments and feelings directly. I have always been a person that needs 'words of affirmations'. Not for a black and white statement sake; it's just me. It's something that I need. Be it for decision makin, or opinions seeking. Beating around the bush doesn't work for me. Might as well, tell it to my face. Truth is not really escapable- inevitable. For the times I refrained myself from askin more, is probably to respect someone else's privacy; but curiosity always, and I mean, always kills the cat. When somethings are involving you as a person; as a pawn with emotions, there will always be the need to secure the way you're speculating things. Thinking things in ur head, makin assumptions, jumpin to conclusions; utterly a paranoia- a migrain inflicted, emotions will go haywire, and judgements will become too vague. And there you have it- a vulnerable humanoid.

The mind leads us to believe, sometimes even when we don't see the logic.

In more xtreme cases, u might even lose sanity. The mind is a powerful thing, but yet an easy influencial (is there such word? Ugh, who cares..) target. A weak mind could easily be exposed to manipulation. A mind might just be a brain thinkin, but it involves a human's life. Destroy a person's mind and you could probably destroy their lives.

As for me, I'm a sentimental person. I take everything that is valuable, precious, important, close to heart, and irreplacecable, seriously. I always mean what I say- emotions wise. If I say "I love you" I mean it. If I say "I hate you" I also mean it. There are no criterias' to one's way of showing a certain emotion. We cannot always expect the expected or want the expected. Indifferent, yes. But wonderful, depending on how you look at it.

"Sometimes, the situation does not allow a particular bond to form. But it's giving a chance to it, that makes a difference." - Babychocolattes, 06

But there's one thing that I've learnt in my life of 17 years: Always be the happier side of you. Do not show a frown to your loved ones, even when you're in an excruciating pain: heartaches, headaches, stomach ache, lost, etc. Always tell yourself to smile even at the worst of times.

Saying it's easy huh? But I have learnt that that's the only way to show your efforts. To allow someone happy, excited, carefree and hyper to have fun with you. And slowly they will understand your pain. Describing is futile. Feeling it is insightful and sensitive. Judging will be unecessary.

Though, I'd also like to point out that, although patience is virtue, stupidity is vice.

Everyone has a limit to something. Note that the one person that tries hard to make another happy, shouldn't be neglected of emotions. Acknowledge them to show that you care. If not, they'll probably feel unwanted and shitty for trying so hard. If the quote "Presistence pays off" exists, then I'm sure efforts are bound to as well. We all wish for the best anyway, but not everything we want to happen, will happen in our favor. That's just a part of life, I guess.

Humans will always be humans. We all commit all 7 deadly sins but also embrace the "infinite" kindness and humanity. That I think, is what we call, equalization? or is it correspondence?

People will always have comments about how you look, whether you're fat or skinny, intellectual or just plain dumb, strong or weak, bitchy or a saint, etc. Accept them though they may not be positive critisisms. There is always someone else better than you. Don't let comparisons make you stray away from who you are. You can change for the better, but you cannot change who you are. Who you are is like your DNA. You can't change ur DNA can u? -.-"

Loving myself is still hard for me to do. There is a certain inferiority involved and I can't seem to let it go. Competition is good, but what's the point if the grand prize is uncertain?

Therefore, it's not wrong to be just- who you are.

P.S: Ya'll know that there is a place in my heart that is currently irreplacable but crushed. Some of you might think "why did Sarah write this all of a sudden?". Well, if you think there is a message up there somewhere, then read the hidden codes a.k.a between the lines :)

"I don't know how far I'm willing to go, but as of now, I won't stop half way." - Babychocolattes, 06

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Remorse happens everyday for me. Moments of weaknesses abolishes; but I always put it up with a smile. I'm not an angel sent by God to please everyone. I don't even have the strength to please myself. Disappointments are inevitable in life. But they are mandatory essence that we live through to get to the top. Being at the top; you'd probably have the liberty to make more people happy. So work it!

Being in the same zone with me, is probably the best anyone could do atm. But no matter what, I will not stop trying. If you don't see results now, just wait and let the future unfold infront of your eyes :)

Love you loads *~*