I want to be an Exorcist

Just because...

1) They're so cool.
2) I get to kick some badass Akuma.
3) I can transform.
4) I would want an eye like Allen.
5) I think the eye is really cool.
6) I want to say this line "Innocence, activate."[..and actually activate somethin]
7) I feel the outfit is kinda cool.
8) The stupid supervisor, Komui-san is ridiculously stupid and dumb but funny -.-
9) Did I mention the eye was kewl?
10) Tincampy is so adorable! :) [it's a golden bird btw]
11) Master Cross is... intelligent in a dumb way :p
12) Allen Walker is, childish but he's the ultimate weapon ya'll! lol
13) Oh! I get to join the Black Order! Sounds damn high tech right ;p

Okay, let's see some proof!

First up, the main character. Atarimai ja. Allen Walker; Cross's apprentice; Exorcist. Not to mention, a worthy sight of the eye.

Look at the eye!

Red and dangerous ;)

"Innocence, hatsudo!"

The golden thing is 'Tincampy' :)

Allen & Lenalee. I hope they end up together ;)

His upgraded eye. Though, I prefer the older one. Maybe this
one will change in the near future ;)

And then, you know there's Lenalee. Komui's sister.
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In both of these episodes, she tries to convince Allen not to go into the cafeteria. Want to know why? Go and watch ;p

Some say she's cute. I say she's lethal! So, it's "Dangerously cute".
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And then, there's the goofy one. Meet Lavi.Yup, one good look at that face, you know he was freakin out :p

Fighting the vamp, ep 21+22.

Dumbass. Oggling at some woman he just met.

Another freaked out face :p Man, u're never serious!
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And finally, meet the lazy, over-protective, obsessive inventor cum supervisor-Komui.

If you're wondering who invented that double octopus hat; you guessed it right. It's komui.

Komui gone stupidly crazed.

Those bunnies, yeah; it's his invention. And take a guess of what they really are. Bombs -.-"
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So there you have it, preview of D.Gray man. I thought it was boring at first but it has a great original storyline. I hope 23 comes out soon :)

It is an anime worthy of the word awesomely awesome! =>

Till I blog again, toodles ;)
13th - 'twas a special day. And a fun day it had been.

*Huggles, Kissles, *private* Hahahaha !! :p nite nite.

Loves,
ChiQaz

I'm not afraid of death

He, who created the universe.
He, who made us who we are.
He, who developed beliefs.
He, who created emotions.

But, He, wants to kill me. I seriously think so. He hurts me in every single way. So why did He create me? To watch me suffer and gasp for freedom?

I'm seriously not afraid of death. Someone, please come and kill me. I'll welcome you.

What fails and what not.

Words; they fail, me.

Words with actions seems to be so too.

The stabbing pain, after reading a personal note, I pictured the pain vividly inside my head. The questions are trailing along the surface, awaiting for its answers. But none could be heard, therefore answered. Or could it just be, that it was heard, but left to drift on its own? What was once said, were they lies? or just plain white lies to keep another happy.

The short essay written before my face, was something that could have killed me, if not, wounded me deep enough. Was it something I shouldn't have cared about, something I shouldn't have seen, or just something that should've been numb by now? Am I just helping myself to gain a little more sanity, see the reality or is it just plain stupidity?

Words; they will fail me, until one could say them without pretending. I might have lost my mind. Might have seen the fine line. Might have lost a part of me. Might have...

As the days pass by, the words I read, are my painkillers. I read them everyday, just so I don't stab myself anymore. I have failed my integrity, I have failed myself.

But as the pain resides, it all seems clearer. Maybe.

Things I do on sleepless nights

Cam-ho. What else? Read books? *read them all already* Please buy me new ones :( Neway, here's the poser doing poser's poses. *Does that even sound right?

Very random, almost candid pics :p Buat emo.
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Thoughts in a distance.

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Water overdose. *see how much se7en influenced me into wearing my pink cap again! ;p*
(Oh, the memories. The story behind the cap lol!)
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Poser #123456789... shameless -.-
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Sorry la, I was bored. Wait, I wasn't really all bored, I was restless. Couldn't sleep. But part of my boredom would have paid off if you didn't mind these pics. Lolz!! Just say you like them la k. Hahahah :p

Oh, McDonalds suck. Fries too salty, everything is overdosed; from cheese, to the sauce inside. :( What happened to the old times McD! *Protesting*

Nit3rz ;) .::No hugs but kisses only today::. *snicker

1,2,3,4,5,6...Se7eN :)

Oh se7en, he's so fine.

Such a fine man. Ugh, where to find la you tell me :(

He fits almost all the qualities I want in a man:-
- Gentle but yet manly
- He can freaking dance his sexy ass off
- There is a charm about him
- He's definitely fun!
- Understanding
- Spontaneous!
- Did I mention fun?
- His voice...so endearing. So soft spoken. But there is a sense of authority
in it too!
- He looks mighty fine.
- Dance, dance, dance!
- He has a hip hoppish style but also an elegant gentleman style.
*Oh.My.God*
- His smile can melt me.
- He raps!
- He's oh so flexible.
- Great kisser too from what I've heard. HAHAHAH! :p
- He loves his hair loads.
- He can beatbox! How cool is that :D
- He's kiddish at times but he knows how to treat a lady.
- He's shy.
- Breakdance! Hawt! Pwee-weet!
- He's rugged at times.
- He likes to self-vidcam :)
- He's cute!
- He makes me laugh when I'm down. *If only I knew him*
- Love the way he dresses.
- Oh, he's fine AND he's smooth. How much better can it get?

Okie, nuff words. Let's cut to the chase.

Se7en. Album cover.

He likes the gloves I like :) Though there are many
more colors and designs. Fact is, we both like those gloves!

Did I mention he's cute? :D <3 ur cap ;)

So, so fine. Love the hair. <3<3

Random shot :) Still looks fine.

Aww, you poor darlin. Workin hard and stylin harder :D

He can dance! and I mean seriously *swoon*

Photoshoot =) Different look for his 4th album. Se7olution?

When he was much younger. His first debut period ;)
.::Smile, smile, smile and make my day::.

Somehow he looks girlish here, but still he's fine!

And he has very gentle hands.

Why can't I know someone like you :( Imagine you can make someone so happy, by just appearing on screen or self-caming while you're playing around :) So much joy and fun in what you do and say. I would <3 to dance like you one day. I'm sure it will happen! ;)

Well, just a lil insight on his life so far.

*Choi Dong Wook is his real name.
*He trained under the management agency, YG.
*He can speak Korean, Japanese, English.
*He has performed not only in Korea, but also in the U.S. (L.A, NYC & Washington D.C)
*All of his songs have dance included :)
*He has released 5 albums so far. 4 in Korean &amp; 1 in Jap.

Fighting! ;)

Priceless

Have you ever stop to think, what kind of person you are? Or is it just too troublesome and the fear that it brings up more questions you don't have answers to.

I'm sure everyone has done a good deed, in silence. No one knows about it. You don't tell anyone. All you can do is be proud that you had the calibre to do so and so. Selfless some would call it, or maybe professional.

Though sometimes, when people don't appreciate the things you do in silence, there is a desire to tell them what was done. But we normally keep them to ourselves. There doesn't seem a need for the long speech.

Those unspoken deeds; invalueable. How far would you go to help someone? Even someone you're not closely related or attached to. Someone you don't even know; a stranger. Someone you hate. Someone you dislike. Someone you don't want to help, but end up helping anyway.

That kindness in you. That kindness that is so under-rated. It's so priceless.

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When people don't understand.

Sucks, when they don't. When they don't understand the situation, the story behind it, the wide opinions, the sadness, the blurness, the confusion and conflict that lies within. They're idealistic. Unable to adapt to situations like those calmly, they normally get annoyed, angry, frustrated, and some don't even bother. In the end, you are the only one listening to the sound of chaos inside your head.

For the unspoken deeds, you get a hammering. For the endless train of thoughts of what might happen, you get the silent treatment. You can say none, but yet the emotions tells the story on your face.

Maybe it's time I become more expressive. Or maybe not. It always seems to get me into unecessary trouble. Reserved. Shall I be more of that?

The whirpool of guilt, anger and disturbance; so harmless as it can be, but only if we let them in, they can contaminate a kind mind. Such a small comment; such a big consequence.

Shall I mourn over what I did not do,
Or shall I leave it be,
Because I've never meant to hurt me.

"A white lie, will always remain as a lie with white lines in between."

I think you ppl reading this would probably have a tough time figuring what the hell I'm reffering to. Well, I can't say much...take your time reading.

A Japanese Day (Part II)

Okay la, I have a confession. The pics of me wearing pink yukata aren't much coz everyone was already tired and the camera was running outta battery. So only a few okay?! But better than nothing right :p Enjoy urself =)

Tired la, was waiting for the flimming to commence.

Our starting pose. I have to say, doing the sitting down
version was a lot harder than standing :(

Then we rested!... for like 3 mins -.-
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To compensate the few photos, here are another 2!
Wahahahahah :D

Peek-a-boo. I see U.
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Meet Tacker. He's handsome and a pervert! kdg :p

He likes to sniff me in between. You know what I mean la! But he's handsome. Though, I prefer the softer handsome version :) Grubby you're still my first pick ;)

That's all fer now :D

*No good deeds go unnoticed.*
Oyasuminasai.

A Japanese Day (Part I)

Konichiwa minna :)

Kyo wa, watashi no Nihon no puroguramu misete itashimasu. Tottemo tanoshii da. Dansu o shita, nihonjin no kazoku mo iita, shashin o tottemashita, sorete ichiban tanoshii no mono wa yukata desu! Ahh... ii na. Watashi mo yukata o hoshiin ne :( Dare ga watashi no tameni kaite moraimasuka?

Ah, koko made hanaseru. Watashi no nihon go ga jouzu janai, dagara sukoshi dake renshushimashita :D Watashi wa ne, mada mada da ne. Itsuka, mirai de, watashi no nihon go ga jouzu ni natte, mo ichido nagai no essay ga ageru ne!

Okay, I'm gonna be on TV! Lol. Excited la. I went shooting for a Japanese lifestyle show :) With me were, Sube-sensei, Renee, was it May? and a few more girls :) I had to learn a dance in 2 hours (2 of the others already knew), and mind you, it was traditional dance. Poise, posture ~ Poise, posture T-T It was alright. I picked up quite nicely and then we just walked around in our yukatas :)

Firstly, must cam-whore la. Too bad there wasn't any full length mirrors around :P

Doing a mock up on the real shooting scene. Those are tatami mats. So comfortable *glows*

Another me. Hahahahha. Don't mind me, please keep reading.

The noob learning from the pro. She was good :) Friendly too.

"ahhh, is this the right pose?" *pouts*

Turnnnn! Make sure you keep the posture! ;) You have no idea how it felt like wearing a yukata for 4 hours :\ Tiring.

Shyness. Cousin was there, and he said must act like "that". By "that" I don't know what he meant, so just pose only la. So candid hahahaha!

Was sulking about something. Forgot what it was about.

This was when I wore the red yukata. I changed later on. So, I'll post the Part II when I can :) Hope you enjoyed yourself!

Tanoshii katta? ii ne :) Yokatta. Ja, mata paruto ni wa omachishite orimasu. Ogenki de!

Warning! Swooning alert :)

Oh. my. god. Allow me to introduce to you, an anime bishounen, CHAOS-sama!! Mesmerizing godlike green eyes(oooh), messy rugged beautiful green hair(oooooooohhh), that handsome mysterious OMG triple hot face(ahhhhhh)... his stare... ohhh his attention locking stare~ did I meantion he's hawt?!! (Yes la, yes la. He's not real, just an anime character and all that shit... bla bla bla... but don't spoil my fun k!) Nyhahahahha ;) *Breathes*

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Here we go!

Who's the guy?! Why is he so hot?... u're about to find out!
(His evil pose)
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Bang!!

Melting, first degree.
(Tell me la, why can't God make someone made
up like this real?!) *wails
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And he stares....

*Swoon* Melting second degree.
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He's an Ou-sama(King) summore! What else can you ask for?!
He'll treat you like a princess :D
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Mokona-chan (cute lil round pao), telling him stories :) Elegance.
[Of course Mokona, you're sinfully cute! Come sleep on my bed ;)]

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Got wings summore! So so godly... someone please come and slap meeee!!
(Take me and let's fly away, to somewhere only
you&I will know)
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*Dies* Too much.
[OMG! That rugged hair! Me likeeee]
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Oh! You...you... you! Darling handsome thing!
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Got GODLY awesome powers summore mmkay! Don't mess with him!! ;)
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When he was younger.
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Finally,

He glows god damn it! *Swooonnn*

Wahliao eh, I'm going obsessively nuts over this bishounen mmkay! But it's only temporary la, I think. No side effects! Well, maybe 1 or 2 dreams :p Ahh... if only he was real. *Dreams*

*Oh, just if you're wondering which anime he's from, it's 'Tsubasa Chronicles'.

Sore ja, oyasuminasai minna! ;) sore tomo Chaos-sama,
hontou no ningen ni natte kudasai!! :p
.::Hugs&KisseS::.

CNY .:: Day 2 ::.

Day 2 was actually random visiting to friends, aunties and uncles place. No cam whoring coz I was still bloody sleepy, and the sleepy bug continued to haunt me the whole damn day. But guess what you're gonna get?!
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Lion dance pictures only! Wahahahahah!!

This year's lion color theme is PURPLE! *I picked the right color to wear this year!* lol. Okay, presenting the poser lion!... but he also can dance martial arts okay. Must give credit mer right? :P

Ready or not? Here I go! Grrrr!!

Wah, I need a bit more courage leh :( The poles are quite high! Everyone clap please. Btw, the ones standing at the corner are the percussionists :)
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Then it was off!!

Kung Fu pose ;)

Bowing down pose!

"I stand tall in this world! All hail the dragon...I mean Lion."
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And, finally...

The finale "squat and pose with banner" pose! Haha! Just kidding la kay ;P
(I don't know what the banner says... but
I think maybe it's 'Have a Properous Year'?)

After all that,

Exhaustion.
(Brother took this pic. Sneaky fella.) =3